I am engaged.

I am getting married.

Those are two sentences that I wondered if I would ever get to type. Because I was not sure. I am sure I probably never lost the desire to get married, but there comes a point in a person’s life, after being single for so long, it just becomes who you are. Hard to imagine not having that status.

But I am not going to say, “It happened when I least expected it.” Although, yes, I wasn’t really expecting it.

I am also not going to say, that I finally became content in my singleness, so God finally decided to bless me. Although, yes, the last 1.5 years of my life, I had experienced contentment like never before.

I am also not going to say that God is good because I am now engaged and getting married October 26th (OF THIS YEAR!!!). Although, yes, the goodness of God is apparent and I feel it all around me.

Some may say, I am now engaged because I finally stopped expecting it but I had “least expected” it almost my entire adult life.

Some may say that I became content, so God could finally bless me. But, I don’t think that is how God works. I don’t think I have that much power. In fact, I believe the opposite. The contentment did not come from me. Sure, I had surrendered my relationship status to the Lord a long time ago and continued to do that often – not just who (or if) I was going to marry, but every aspect of my life. I believe that because God knew it was time for me to be married, He allowed contentment in my life like no other time – because I lived the last 1.5 years knowing and believing that if I never got married, I would not be less than, I would still be fully whole and complete in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. And I would be okay. I was given the gift of contentment. And now the gift of preparing for a marriage, knowing that it will not complete me, because I already am complete in Christ.

Some may say “God is Good!” after I tell them my engagement news and I will smile, nod and agree wholeheartedly. But, I won’t say that God is good BECAUSE I am engaged. God is good because that is who He is despite my circumstances. God was good ten years ago when I started dating. God was good during the nights I cried myself to sleep as my heart was breaking. God was good as I walked through many years of loneliness and sadness. And yes, I would agree with those people that God is good today too as I experience being engaged.

If my circumstances caused God to be good, I would be sitting on the throne. And that is not where I want to be. Because if I were on the throne in my life, He would not be.

I am engaged.

I am getting married.

And do you want to know why? Because it is God’s timing for me.

I was praying a few nights ago and asked God why His timing looks different for some people. Why do some people meet their person so young in life and some the year before they turn 40? And in my spirit I felt the words, “Because it happens when it will bring me the most glory.”

I don’t know if those words were thought up by me or they were given to me by the Holy Spirit. But I do know I want to bring Him glory.

So, I pray that somehow my story does.

Because I am head over heels in love. Because I am so happy that most days, I have a hard time wiping the smile off my face. Because every time I think about the man I get to marry, my stomach does a flip flop.

And I cannot wait to marry him. I cannot wait to marry the man who I get to walk next to and bring the Lord glory together. Some may know him as Mr. KJWTS from my 30 dates before 30. Others may know him as David.

But for me, I know him simply as my best friend.